Dear Future Me (2019) - When I Grow Up

Dear Future Me (2019) - When I Grow Up This is the eighth time I’ve written a Dear Future Me letter, and it’s now a firm New Years Day tradition. You can read last year’s letter here, and then prior ones from the links back on 2017s letter. Here it is in its entirety, as scary as that feels. Here’s to more truth and authenticity in 2019! January 1, 2020 Dear Future Me, Oh, this year, Michelle this year! This year was led by your chosen word, CEO. I know you chose that word not just for its usual business implications, but for the personal effects you hoped it would have. And because you so deliberately kept it front of mind, its effect has been transformative. You speak your truth in real time, voicing your needs, wants, opinions and concerns as necessary. While you were so worried about hurt feelings, it’s had the opposite effect being more of a help in all aspects of your life, instead of a hindrance. Just keep making decisions and communicating in a way that makes you feel good and proud, and let go of the reactions and responses of others that you can’t control. You took the reins at work, and the back-end of your business now feels like a well-oiled machine. You have the exact right help and support you need, with every dollar feeling well spent and every team member in the right place. Your monthly tracking and quarterly assessments have led to smart and impactful decisions. Not to mention that you’ve passed off so much of the admin work that you didn’t need to be doing! CEO, baby. C.E.O. You went into this year feeling both proud and incredulous about your 2018 business accomplishments, and 2019 took it to the next level. You now have both a strong and proven year-long program with Dream To Done*, the on-demand course of your dreams (with a live component, yaaaaas queen!) with Discover Your Dream Business, and a lead collection system that works, amen and hallelujah. Get ready for 2020 to blow it out of the water: it’s coming. Despite all this goodness, it’s not even what I’m most proudcited about. What I’m most proudcited about is how you’ve changed the way you talk to yourself, how you treat yourself. You did the deep digging and emerged a kinder, stronger self. No more beating yourself up when you don’t hit the idealized version of yourself, or when you assumed you disappointed someone. Now you bring it up, get it out and let it go and it’s made all the difference. Speaking of difference, the colorful streak in your hair and the new tattoo is just you feeling more like yourself. Keep growing into the person you feel yourself becoming, because she’s frigging awesome. I know you’re worried and anxious about the cancer coming back, but don’t be. It was almost 4 years since the 1st and 2nd bout, and July would have been that same mark since your last diagnosis and there wasn’t even a blip to worry about. When you think dark thoughts and get scared, just repeat your mantra, “I am here now”, breathe deeply, and let Luke comfort you. You are so loved. That kid of yours continues to be delicious, funny, smart, kind, energetic, creative, athletic and exactly the daughter you dreamed of. When it’s time to be with her, be present. It all goes by so fast, and giving her your full attention is always the right decision. Don’t shy away from gratitude and acknowledgment of all you’ve been given, all you’ve worked for, all you have, and all you wish for. The more you say “Thank you, more please”, the more the world opens up for you. Thank you, 2019. More please. Love, Current Michelle *Psst! Want to get first dibs on Dream To Done? Sign up for my live, $0 webinar and you’ll get all the info on the 16th!